Refund and Reparation

This is my contribution to the celebrations and protests on the
occasion of the birthday of L. Ron Hubbard in 2000.

Not all that long ago, someone sent me a copy of the set of writings
which follow, written by L. Ron Hubbard in or about 1947. The
original of these writings was in Hubbard's personal archive which I
assembled and worked with in 1980 and 1981. I provided the writings
to Omar Garrison, a wog ® writer with whom $cientology had contracted
to write Hubbard's "authorized biography." In 1984 I read portions of
them into the record at my trial in $cientology v. Armstrong, Los
Angeles Superior Court, Case No. C 420153. The trial resulted in the
widely cited decision by Judge Paul G. Breckenridge, Jr. wherein he
described Hubbard as a "pathological liar." (URL?)

Omar first called these writings Hubbard's "Affirmations." Later,
after it dawned on him that Hubbard was a stupendous liar, Omar said
he was correcting himself, and thereafter called the writings the
"Admissions." I believe that Omar was right, and that these writings
are "Affirmations," but more importantly, "Admissions."

I will not now provide anything really of my own analysis or
conclusions about Hubbard's Admissions, because I want every
$cientologist or wog ® who reads them to be free, or with negligible
influence, to think about them for himself. I will comment below, for
legal reasons, on *why* I am posting the Admissions. I have my own
experiences, naturally, with these writings, I have drawn my own
conclusions about them, and I expect I will participate in a
discussion or two they may generate.

I don't know who in this recent period sent me the copy from which I
typed that follows. In any event I would not divulge the identity of
the person because of the clear and senseless threat of attack from
the people who now run $cientology. It is sufficient for legal
purposes to state that the copy I received was not made by me. By the
time the Admissions are posted to the internet, I will have, pursuant
to the wishes of the person who made it, destroyed the copy I
received.

I will also immediately wipe the Admissions from my hard drive. Thus
the people who run $cientology will have less reason or justification
to raid me or break into my house or computer than they have to raid
or break into the house or computer of a million other people.

The Admissions I received are not complete. Perhaps when the kind
person who sent me the copy sees they have been posted he will send
the rest of the writings. My recollection is that the remainder of
the Admissions do not diverge from the substance, direction or tone of
what I'm posting here. Included in the remainder is, I think, a
deeper delve into Hubbard's sexual anxieties or aberrations, following
the same vein he mined in the part I received. What I received, for
example, doesn't include Hubbard's startling admission, "It doesn't
give me displeasure to hear of a virgin being raped. The lot of women
is to be fornicated."

I am posting the Admissions for all of the reasons stated in my
declaration of January 26, 1997, specifically in paragraphs 57 - 65,
which I recently posted to a.r.s.:

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In that declaration I provided my expert opinion that the exposing or
dissemination of $cientology's "sacred scriptures," which exposure or
dissemination the organization prohibits, suppresses and punishes by
commercial, secular copyright and trademark law and millions upon
millions of simoleons to lawyer scumbags, is justified by the greater
principle of religious freedom. I stated that publication of
$cientology's "secret scriptures" is in my opinion Constitutionally
protected religious expression.

Hubbard's Admissions are quite obviously a part of $cientology's
"scriptures. On the holiness scale ®, they are holier than the
holiest of the Advanced Technology scriptures, because the people who
run $cientology won't show them to $cientologists even if they have a
half million dollars to pay and agree to the organization implant.
Although the Admissions are the holiest of $cientology's scriptures,
the Miscavige regime withholds them for the identical commercial,
secular, base and criminal reasons they withhold the "OT" "Levels,"
the "NOT$," and the whereabouts of Xenu's mountain cave.

$cientology has set no prerequisites or punishments that I'm aware of
for $cientologists reading Hubbard's Admissions, and for that at least
I'm grateful. I believe that the Admissions should be read by every
$cientologist at whatever point they find themselves on the bridge.
$cientologists won't get pneumonia. They might have some good
cognitions. ® They might become free.

The Admissions were very important to me in my getting free of the web
of lies Hubbard and $cientology had spun, and getting free of their
domination and suppression. I am posting these writings now with the
prayer that they help to free other $cientologists from Hubbard's and
Miscavige's lies, domination and suppression. If Hubbard has been
humbled and regained his willfully lost humanity, I know he too would
want every $cientologist to read all his Admissions.

Obviously I don't have any desire to profit monetarily by posting
Hubbard's unpublished Admissions. My desire is that these writings
help everyone, $cientologist and wog ®, to make informed and better
choices about L. Ron Hubbard and $cientology. I was not freed by
being a $cientologist, doing $cientology, and having all the
experiences, cognitions and trappings of $cientology. I was freed by
reading what $cientologists don't get to read, by being what no
$cientologist would be, a wog ®, by doing what no $cientologist would
do, and having my own experiences, cognitions and stuff. I share
Hubbard's Admissions with everyone because God Who created knowledge
does not want anyone to be kept ignorant.

I stated in the Jan 26, 1997 declaration that the people $cientology
identified as violating the organization's copyrights and sued - Grady
Ward, Lawrence Wollersheim, Keith Henson, Dennis Erlich, Arnie Lerma,
Bob Penny -- were in general agreement that $cientology is not a
sincere, and hence real, religion, but is a criminal cult engaged in
harmful practices. I also stated that if these people are correct in
their assessment, and if they did expose or publish $cientology's
"secret" documents, they were and are completely justified in having
done so.

Repeating what I wrote in the Jan 26, 1997 declaration, "In my
opinion this kind of expression is an expected, logical response to
Scientology's efforts to corrupt the meaning of religion in order to
"sanctify" its antisocial and dangerous mind set and criminal
activities. It is expression which cannot legally be prohibited or
punished by judicial process." I agree completely that $cientology,
that is, $cientology as directed by David Miscavige and his regime, is
not a sincere, real religion, but a criminal cult engaged in harmful
practices.

I could, quite clearly, have posted the Admissions anonymously. I
gave it serious consideration, because while I believe these writings,
for the peace and health and spirit of so many people, should be
posted immediately, I wanted to do what be effective and not the
stupid end of martyrdom. I decided against anonymity, however, for a
number of reasons. I believe that by U.$., Canadian and international
law, and common sense, I am permitted to publish these writings
openly. I believe that by common decency, by human and civil rights
codes, by being a Prophet to $cientologists (Pt$), and by God Himself,
I am urged, in fact directed, to post these writings and post them
openly.

I am also posting the Admissions openly to confirm their authenticity.
The copy I received was not clear in places, and it is now gone. All
words, spellings, punctuation and notations are Hubbard's, except for
brackets [] which are mine. I pray that DM makes the complete
original of the Admissions available for $cientologists around the
world. Indeed I pray that he reveals every hidden piece of Hubbard's
writings, and yes, even his own secret documents, to all
$cientologists and interested wogs ®. Robert Vaughn Young and Stacy
Brooks at least have read the Admissions and will be able to confirm
that what follows here is, within reasonable parameters, authentic. I
was very careful, but if there are any errors at all in what I have
posted of the Hubbard Admissions, I urge DM to have them corrected.

Posting the Admissions, I believe, lessens the threat of harm or
murder to silence me, but it ups the revenge factor ®. The person who
sent me the copy emphatically doesn't want any trouble. Good Lord, I
don't want any trouble, and I'm the guy who typed this copy and will
now post it using my own name to a.r.s. The person who sent the copy
certainly knew that I would recognize the writings and I'd like to
think wanted me to do with them what I've done and what the person was
in no position to do. I have not shown what I'm posting to anyone, but
I will now email it to certain people when I post it.

I am aware that DM will almost certainly attack me. To justify his and
$cientology's continuing attack, as Hubbard did for his continuing
attacks while he lived, they made attack their organizational policy
of choice, or scripture of choice I suppose I should say.
Nevertheless, perhaps this is a good time for Miscavige to learn that
non-attack is the best policy.

I really think the $cientologists would be silly to sue me. Then
again I've thought they're silly for years and years and that hasn't
deterred them. But perhaps in this instance they can learn to not do
another silly thing. I'm giving $cientology and $cientologists
another golden opportunity to stop being silly. It's God actually Who
gives everyone opportunities to stop being silly. I'm but a simple
messenger, with staggering inabilities, and at times admittedly silly.
Miscavige's $cientology is willfully silly. Suppression is no
accident, it is willful. I am but a prophet who brings $cientologists
opportunities to be healed of their willfulness, silliness and
suppression.

I am aware that the posting of the Admissions makes a godsent legal
test case. If I am guided by God, what I have done not being unsafe
or immoral, my post is protected expression because it cannot be
denied. Without including God, it is clear that $cientology,
$cientologists and their agents (for there are wogs ® who are
$cientology's agents) are themselves responsible for my actions. What
they have done to silence me, to 8-C my body from place to place, to
invalidate me, to black PR me, to threaten me, to destroy me, has
either been a source of my state of mind, and hence my actions, or God
has. (I think it can be agreed that the mind directs actions, rather
than actions directing the mind.)

If God is directing my actions, how could I do anything else? If DM
and his $cientology organization have affected my mind, they bear
responsibility for the act about which they might complain. In truth
both things are true. God is in control, and DM and $cientology have
unclean hands. It is observable throughout history that God sends
prophets, and even the unprophetable, to deal with tyrants and regimes
whose hands are unclean.

A case can be made that my posting Hubbard's Admissions is a fair and
appropriate response to DM's dissemination and internet posting of my
writing known as the "pig dream." Obviously I held the copyright to
that unpublished work. The pig dream was a glimpse in an extremely
literary form into the mind of Gerry Armstrong. The Admissions are a
glimpse in a different literary form into the mind of L. Ron Hubbard.

I certainly don't argue that Hubbard's Admissions are no more
important or vital than my pig dream. There is, after all, nobody
paying huge sums of money and spending their lives working for
Armstrongology. On the other hand, Hubbard's dead. DM had his agents
post the pig dream to hurt me. I'm posting Hubbard's Admissions to set
$cientologists free. I'll copyright my portion of this post, and
hereby give my permission for it to be copied and distributed.

For fair use purposes, the context for the post containing
theAdmissions is the global controversy about Hubbard, about
$cientology's antecedents, about Hubbard's psyche, his honesty or
dishonesty, his mental technology, "Excalibur," his promises, his
aims, his history, his theology, his hypnotism, his navy record, his
non-navy record, and other clearly controversial Hubbard-connected
conumdrums. The context is the controversy we see every day on a.r.s.
and in media around the world.

The period when Hubbard made these Admissions involved John W.
Parsons, Sara Northrup, his family, magick, his "development" of
"Dianetics" leading to the publication of the book that would make him
famous and lead on to $cientology. Funnily, Hubbard and $cientology
claim that he was a "Special Officer" for the LAPD in this period and
that he was working for the U$ Navy to break up the Parsons "black
magic ring." There is a VA record showing that around the time of the
Admissions Hubbard sought psychiatric help.

Just one last thought, which I'll repeat from my Jan 26, 1997
declaration, and which I pray that DM and his $cientologists take to
heart. Although man may attempt to keep God out of his other realms,
he surely cannot keep God out of religion, because in this world it is
His Realm. That's sort of the message every prophet brings.

I hope Hubbard's Admissions are a blessing and a help to all.