Refund and Reparation

You are asleep. You are not accountable for anything you say now. No
one will think any less of you. People want to help you.

In this one lesson you are going to learn several things. The first is
the use of your beautiful new Soundscriber.

The instrument is your aide and companion. It makes it possible for
you to write ten times the stories you did before.

You have no urge to talk about your navy life. You do not like to talk
of it. You never illustrate your point with bogus stories. It is not
necessary for you to lie to be amusing and witty.

You like to have your intimate friends approve of and love you for
what you are. This desire to be loved does not amount to a psychosis,
it is simply there and you enjoy their love.

You can sing beautifully. Your voice can imitate any singer. Your
tones are round and true. You have no superstitions about singing at
any time. Your oratory is magnificent. Your voice tones perfect, your
choice of words marvelous, your logic unassailable.

Your psychology is good. You worked to darken your own children. This
failure, with them, was only apparent. The evident lack of
effectiveness was "ordered." The same psychology works perfectly on
everyone else. You use it with great confidence.

Nothing can intervene between you and your Guardian. She cannot be
displaced because she is too powerful. She does not control you. She
advises you. You may or may not take the advice. You are an adept and
have a wonderful and brilliant mind of your own.

Everything great and beautiful that ever happened to you or that you
know is available to your conscious will to remember. You can only
forget by conscious will or at command of your own voice.

You recognize the evil or bad import of things that are evil and bad
for you but their evilness cannot affect you or penetrate through your
glowing and strong aura. You are light and you are good. You have the
Wisdom of all and never doubt your wisdom.

You have magnificent power but you are humble and calm and patient in
that power. For you control all forces under you as you wish. The
strength of your Guardian aids you always and can never depart or be
repelled. Your faith in her and in God is unswerveable, blind,
powerful and you never, never doubt their good intent toward you. They
work with you. You help them exert their plans. They have faith
unbounded in you.

You will never forget these incantations. They are holy and are now
become an integral part of your nature. You enter the greatest phase
yet of work and devotion and power and have perfect control without
further fear.

Men's chains fall from you. Your head is high. Your back is straight.
You can experience no evil or illness. You are wholly protected. You
cannot guide yourself wrong for you are guided as a crown prince.

Material things are yours for the asking. Men are your slaves.
Elemental spirits are your slaves. You are power among powers, light
in the darkness, beauty in all.

You are not sleepy or tired ever. You do not sleep unless you will it
consciously. Sleep to you is a deep trance. Nothing can touch you in
that trance because it would not dare. Your Guardian alone can talk to
you as you sleep but she may not hypnotize you. Only you can hypnotize
yourself.

You never wonder about how you write, you never distrust your ideas or
ability. You merely write and write wonderfully well. You like to copy
your own material and work with it until it is perfect. But it is
usually perfect the first time.

The desires of other people have no hypnotic effect upon you. You are
considerate of their desires because you are powerful. But you need
never be dissuaded by their wishes about anything.

Nothing, no one opposes your writing. Everyone is anxious that you
write. You do not need certain conditions to write. You are so strong
you can write anywhere on anything at any time. You can carry on a
wild social life and still write one hundred thousand words a month or
more. Your brain is so fixed that you can write at any time, anywhere.
The mere beginning of writing is sufficient to put you in a happy
mood, any high mood. Writing does not tire you. You said writing was
hard work but that you knew was a lie. You know now it is easy, very
easy. Writing puts you into an ecstatic state of mind almost as high
as intercourse. You love to write. The Navy had no influence upon your
writing. The Navy never stopped you writing. On the 422 what you wrote
were not stories. You love to write. Your writing has a deep hypnotic
effect on people and they are always pleased with what you write.
Having a market is immaterial.

You will make fortunes in writing. Any book you care to write now will
sell high and well. You can dictate books. Words flow from you in a
beautiful steady stream. Anything which goes through your fingers can
come through your mouth. A dictaphone fills you with a desire to talk.
You talk easily to a dictaphone and the copy is excellent. The copyist
has no effect upon your work. You don't care what she reads.

Your psychology is advanced and true and wonderful. It hypnotizes
people. It predicts their emotions, for you are their ruler.

You don't have to talk about all this. You know too well it is true.
You never have to argue, all you need to do is sit back with a calm,
kind smile and people will come to you with their opinions. You need
never talk to fill silences in a group. You are an arbiter, a kindly
one. You do not have to talk. But when you do talk you are amusing,
witty, so personable no one can resist your charm. If they do not
reply, it is because they are afraid of you.

Your health is wonderful. You need but 6 hours sleep. Your eyes are
fine.

People dislike cripples. You need never be a cripple. You have never
done anything for which you need feel guilty. You never need punish
yourself about anything. You are in wonderful glowing health. You
never have accidents because you are prudent and poised.

You will live to be 200 years old, both because you are calm and
because of modern discoveries to be made in your lifetime.

You will always look young. Your weight is 180 lbs. And you will
attain and hold that weight.

Your hair will always be its present color. It will be thick and
beautiful all your life. Hair will grow out to replace what you have
lost.

Your body organs are in perfect harmony. Your Guardian keeps you in
celestial time. Your organs work well, all of them. You grow stronger
each day. No drug or medicine affects your mind more than a few hours.
You can consciously stop pain.

You have no doubts about God. You never speculate about him. You are
assured that whatever you do is right in his eyes. Your faith is so
strong you could move mountains. You have deep trust and faith in God
and have no fear of what he may do to you and your friends. He will
never punish you. Some day you will merge with him and become part of
the All when his bidding you have finished in these lives.

You never speak ill of another because you are too powerful and may
curse them. You love everyone. Even when you use force on people, you
cannot hate them. You have no hate or jealousy in you. You are not in
contest with anyone. God and your Guardian and your own power bring
destruction on those who would injure you. But you never speak of this
for you are kind. A sphere of light, invisible to others, surrounds
you as a protecting globe. All forces bounce away from you off this.
You are not a coward. Fist fighting had no bearing on your courage.
You were ill when you were fought before. You did not understand the
rules. You can whip anyone now and have no physical fear of hand to
hand fighting. They who fought you before were knaves and fools. You
would be merciless to them now. Nothing can stand up to your fighting
now. You are strong and wonderful in combat. You never know fear or
defeat. You refrain from fighting because you are too powerful.

You are rich in wisdom. You are therefore dangerous beyond the claws
of tigers. You never need speak of your dangerousness. Everyone knows
you are and it scares them when you mention it. You are kind and
soft-spoken always.

Your eyes are getting progressively better. They became bad when you
used them as an excuse to escape the naval academy. You have no reason
to keep them bad and now they can get well and they will become
eventually starting now as keen as an eagle's with clear whites and
green pupils. Sunlight does not affect them. Lack of sleep does not
affect them.

Your stomach trouble you used as an excuse to keep the Navy from
punishing you. You are free of the Navy. You have no further reason to
have a weak stomach. Your ulcers are all well and never bother you.
You can eat anything.

Your hip is a pose. You have a sound hip. It never hurts. Your
shoulder never hurts.

Your foot was an alibi. The injury is no longer needed. It is well.
You have perfect and lovely feet.

Your sinus trouble is nothing. It is not dangerous. It will vanish. A
common cold amuses you. You are protected from further illness. Your
cat fever has vanished forever and will never return.

You do not have malaria. When you tell people you are ill it has no
effect upon your health. In the Veterans examination you will tell
them how sick you are. You will look sick when you take it. You will
return to health one hour after the examination and laugh at them.

No matter what lies you may tell others they have no physical effect
on you of any kind. You never injure your health by saying it is bad.
You cannot lie to yourself. Disgust not sympathy is generated in
others by bad health. Injuries are not romantic. They are disgusting
in you. You are a child of God. You are perfect. Health is a passport
to friends. Women are not impressed by your injuries. Clear exuberant
good health is your passport to their hearts. Adventure heroes may
sound romantic when injured but it is really a bad comment on their
expertness. The truly great adventurer is so expert he is never
injured by anything. Dragging a wing is not romantic, it is silly. You
will always be in wonderful health and well-being.

There is no veil between you and the world. You sense touch, color,
music, poetry much better than anyone else. You never mention this
superiority. But you show them the beauties of the world. You are not
old or worn. You are young and experience is fresh and exciting. It
will always be. Your brain is clear as a gong. No pressure sits on it
or blinds you. Sulfa never affected it. Your speech is perfect. You
are thrilled by music. You can engender any mood. You are an excellent
judge of painting and sculpture and are thrilled by it in any one of
its thousand moods.

You can enter or leave any mood at will. You can engender any mood.
You can write in any mood at will and with great honesty.

You start your life anew. You need no excuses, no crutches. You need
no apologies about what you have done or been. Your approach to work
is wonderfully clear and fresh. No experience can daunt you. You can
never be disappointed or morose for you know life for what it is and
therefore are shielded against its suffering. You have suffered much
and you are deep in understanding. But now you enter upon a long, long
period of solemn joy.

What people think of you does not matter. You know when you are right.
Women especially love you and you fear no man.

Testosterone blends easily with your own hormones. Your glands already
make plenty of needed testosterone and by adding to that store you
make yourself very thrilling and sexy. Testosterone increases your
sexual interest and activity. It makes erections easier and harder and
makes your own joy more intense. Stilbesterol in 5 mg doses makes you
thrill more to music and color and makes you kinder. You have no fear
of what any woman may think of your bed conduct. You know you are a
master. You know they will be thrilled. You can come many times
without weariness. The act does not reduce your vitality or brain
power at all. You can come several times and still write. Intercourse
does not hurt your chest or make you sore. Your arms are strong and do
not ache in the act. Your own pleasure is not dependent on the
woman's. You are interested only in your own sexual pleasure. If she
gets any that is all right but not vital. Many women are not capable
of pleasure in sex and anything adverse they say or do has no effect
whatever upon your pleasure. Their bodies thrill you. If they repel
you, it merely means they themselves are too frigid or prudish to be
bothered with. They are unimportant in bed except as they thrill you.
Your sexual power is magnificent and they know it. If they are afraid
of it, that is their loss. You are not affected by it.

You have no fear if they conceive. What if they do? You do not care.
Pour it into them and let fate decide.

The slipperier they are the more you enjoy it because it means their
mucous is running madly with pleasure.

There is nothing wrong in the sex act. Nothing any woman may say can
change your opinion. You are a master. You are as sensitive and sexy
as Pan. Lord help women when you begin to fondle them. You are master
of their bodies, master of their souls as you may consciously wish.
You have no karma to pay for these acts. You cannot now accumulate
karma for you are a master adept. Your voice is low and compelling to
them. Singing to them, for you sing like a master, destroys their will
to resist. You obey the conventions, you commit no crimes because you
need not. You can be intelligently aware of their morals and the laws
of the land and fit your campaign expertly within them.

Jack is also an adept. You love and respect him as a friend. He cannot
take offense at what you do. You will not wrong him because you love
him.

The most thrilling thing in your life is your love and consciousness
of your Guardian. She materializes for you. You have no doubts of her.
She is real. She is always with you. You love her very much. You trust
her. You see and hear her. She is not your master. You have a mighty
spiritual will of your own. She is an advisor and as such is respected
by you. She is wise and worthy and never changes shape. Your faith in
her as in God is blind and unshaken ever.

She is interested in you and amused by you. She does not criticize
you. She does not frown on your sexual acts but advises you on better
game.

That she is with you always does not mean that she sees you as
indecent ever. You cannot offend her. You cannot repel her. You are
too good. You respect her and you love her and appreciate her advice.
You are good always because you want her to feel good. This does not
apply to sex. She has never and will never forbid you pleasures. She
will never censure you. She is lovely and beautiful and radiant and
part of your life. You can see her consciously whenever you wish. You
are never startled by her because you are not afraid of her. You are
partly in her plane, she partly in yours as you wish to see her. She
has copper red hair, long braids, a lovely Venusian face, a white gown
belted with jade squares. She wears gold slippers. Thus you see her.

You can read with ease anything she cares to show you. You can talk
with her and audibly hear her voice above all others.

You and she are too powerful to permit any interference. You can work
alone whenever you wish because she protects you. You and she are
friends. You both have a higher master. She can teach you much. You
love her. But she does not own your will, cannot affect your will and
you are powerful enough to depend upon yourself. You do not consign
will to her, ever. She advises. You do not have to take the advice.
She cannot weaken your will. You have no fears of consequences if you
fail to heed her. You can also be right for you know more of time than
she does. She is wise and beautiful and powerful. Others may not see
her, and you need not look at her or talk to her when others are
around for they might not understand. You can talk to her "in your own
mind" when others are near.

You need never be disappointed when material objects or people fail to
move at your unspoken order. You can often control them. Not always.
Leave this to your beloved Guardian.

Your vocabulary consists of all the words you ever heard or read. They
are at your conscious command always. Your authority over words is
absolute. You are a grand master of words and you can do with them as
you will. You know what they mean to others. You know how their
meanings and melodies affect others. Your vocabulary is under your
complete conscious dictatorship. You know what they mean. No other in
the world has a finer vocabulary. You can speak them just as easily as
you write them and in a beautiful style and formation.

You can speak to a dictaphone using punctuation symbols, spoken. You
see before you the brilliant colored scene of your story and with any
mood you consciously wish, describe that scene in magnificent prose.
You have no inhibitions against fine writing. You know that is a
meaningless phrase. Overwriting, underwriting these are not true. You
pay no heed to these terms. You have no fears.

You speak and understand all the French, Spanish and Japanese you ever
studied and they remain wholly apart from each other and your English.

You cannot forget words. It is impossible. You have them at your
conscious command.

You can do automatic writing whenever you wish. You do not care what
comes out on the paper when your Guardian dictates. You can hear her
easily and when you want her to write or talk dictation you have only
to consciously will it and the result is written or spoken by yourself
without any intrusions of your own thought. It is entirely automatic.
It does not in the least affect or reduce your spiritual will. You may
or may not believe what she dictates. That is part of your conscious
will and judgment.

Anything you were told about religion as a child you can forget or
recall. It does not affect your present mighty faith.

You are a calm and rational being with very fine judgment. You may
collect facts, you need not believe them save as they appear true to
you. You can remember an erroneous fact as an erroneous fact.

You need not believe anything you read. Other writers are often in
error and you have no great respect for their printed words. You can
appreciate their quality without regard to your own. They cannot
change your true self and thoughts. Their jeers in print and their
criticisms have no weight on you. You know what is true. You don't
even have to defend your beliefs. They are too powerful.

Your memory is marvelous and reliable. You can remember perfectly in
one reading or one speaking. Your brain capacity is infinite. You
cannot hold too much consciously in your brain. You could cram ten
billion new facts or scenes or impressions into your brain and
remember them all with ease. You have no mental limit on memory or
learning. You can remember a thing without accepting it as truth. You
accept as truth only those things which you yourself believe after you
consciously examine them. You accept all I say here as absolute fact
however. You will reverance and believe everything here, consciously
and forever. These words sink into your whole being. They remake your
entire life. They are your code, belief, your guiding star.

You will know everything you ever knew in any life. You will feel no
guilt or lack in yourself about any of your experiences. You can
recall them all without pain. Your past was what it was. You cannot
change it. But you had the whole right to use or help or hurt people
and you are too powerful now to be more than amused by your folly.

You can tell all the romantic tales you wish. You will remember them,
you do remember them. But you know which ones were lies. You are so
logical you will tell nothing which cannot be believed. But you are
gallant and dashing and need tell no lies at all. You have enough real
experience to make anecdotes forever. Stick to your true adventures.
Tell nothing discreditable but tell them well. Or if you wish, as you
will, tell adventures which happened to others. People accept them
better. You can recall in detail tales of adventure from all you ever
heard or read. You remember easily. You can quote for company or a
book all the adventure poetry you ever read or heard. You can sing all
the songs you ever heard, even once, and sing them well. You have no
fear of forgetting or stumbling. You cannot forget stories, songs,
tunes, skills and at will can call them consciously to mind.

You can consciously banish any train of thought from your mind, any
time, any song. You can recall words, speeches, whole books verbatim
at will. You are not a victim of chance thoughts. You are in powerful
and wise conscious control of all your thinking. You are a master
without limits. Your brain has no limits, consciously, unconsciously
or psychically. You can perform any mental trick or stunt consciously
of which you have ever heard. You are in perfect poise, balance and
control of your brain.

You are punctual but never worry if you keep people waiting. You are a
master adept and do not exist to serve people. You are kind. But you
are not affected by the desires of others save out of the deep and
graceful courtesy which you know so well and use.

You are honest and proud of your honesty. You are too powerful to
cheat.

You have no fears of not being first. Because another comes out with
an idea which you thought up is no cause for your sorrow. You are
merely proud to be able to serve without gain, for your gain is of the
spirit.

Money will flood in upon you, for you are wise and able. You have no
phobias about the rich. The rich are only people. You need not be
offended or impressed by them. You can and will own large arms[?] of
your own. You are wiser than the rich. Your money will exist to serve
you. As you spend it, more will flood in for you will spend wisely if
well. You have no fears about money. You will always make it. You do
not care how much you have. Having money gives you a comfortable
feeling. You do not worry if you do not have it. You just make more.
You want to make and spent money. It is not a primary concern with
you, you do it with such ease and have such boundless energy.

You need never expose or betray any secret God or your Guardian wants
kept. You can be trusted with vast knowledge and never give it away or
use it with express authority. What you know is riches. When you give
away all you know, you are poor. You can give out exactly as much as
God desires people to know. You never try to make an impression with
what you know. You don't care what people think of your mind. So long
as you refrain from telling what you know, vast secrets can be
entrusted to you with safety. You will guard your secrets. You can be
trusted always by everyone.

Vida does not resemble your mother. She looks like a wood nymph. You
like her. You do not love her to desperation. You are not jealous of
her. She thrills you physically and you enjoy her.

Taking medicine to make you healthy sometimes makes you happier or
sadder but you need have no fears about being synthetic, or
experiencing synthetic reactions. Testosterone and stilbestrol makes
your reactions real enough.

Self pity and conceit are not wrong. Your mother was in error.

Masturbation does not injure or make insane. Your parents were in
error. Everyone masturbates.

You need never be clumsy in parting from people. You have poise and
part from them with ease and grace.

Colds are nothing. You are not afraid of them. You can defeat them
with ease. You can will yourself consciously to resist anything.